Sunday, March 13, 2011

No matter what they tell us......



No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We'll find our own way back

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know I'll love forever
I know, no matter what

If only tears were laughter
If only night was day
If only prayers were answered
Then we would hear God say

No matter what they tell you
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach you
What you believe is true

And I will keep you safe and strong
And sheltered  from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born

No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need

No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know, I know
I know this love's forever
That's all that matters now
No matter what

Sunday, February 13, 2011

My Sweet heart.......


 My Sweetheart
You are my Sweet heart
 I could tell from the start…
You made me realize
we could never be apart…..
The things you do
 to make me smile…
I love being it you
You made life worthwhile……
My sweetheart you are
My sweetheart you will stay……
I now see our love
Is not a game to play….
I am glad we are together
And not only friends…..
You are my Sweetheart
From beginning to end……



Wednesday, February 2, 2011

rishtey (Relations)


Before I really begin this story I just want to tell u some precautions for reading this story. First don’t read this story by your mind, just read it with heart because for understanding a love story the first priority is of a heart with love. Second thing which may be some people will not like is this story is not for them who don’t believe in real love, and as a writer of this story these expectations are not so much. So at last just enjoy it………….
12th Dec- A cold evening of December, if you ask me personally I never like any cold evening of December as much as I like that Evening. This is may be because I am in Delhi for first time in my life in winters, and Delhi is famous for its winter season………sorry but I forget to introduce myself me Rahul, a simple guy from a small town who came to Delhi for pursuing Engineering. As like all that students who came to engineering every year, just because they always got from their surrounding environment that if you want to take a big pay cheque; Engineering is the best place for you. And without any shame I can also say that I am also one of them. But what happens with me in these some days changed my whole perception about the life.
After whole day’s project research, classes and some gyan about what u want to be in your life can you think what an Engineering student can do oh sorry you don’t have to use your mind in this story so I tell you, after whole this we can only think about a bottle of Vodka or may be beer (whom I always call my best lover in this world because she never make me feel alone). So I called my friend Ajay a guy from proper Delhi. He done all the things in his 25 year’s life which I cannot do in even 250 years life like drinking 22 Pegs of Vodka (Almost 3 liter) and driving his bike on highway, I don’t know from where he got these guts. So I told him to meet me at Moka our all time favorite bar. One more friend of mine is also coming Rajiv a perfect Fattu person I never got to know that why he come with us in our parties and every time saying the same thing-
“Hey Guys I have to go home early so I will not drink too much because my father told me that if I drink he will break my both the legs.” I always think about this line that how can a father break both the legs of his son, it will be a great loss for them also because after that he can’t go on job and no job means no money……..no money means no wife and no wife means no reproductivity. Hey then what will happen with their next generation. But we cannot believe on human being nowadays he can do all the things which he cannot think.
After fix thirty minutes we are at Moka bar, our part time home. DJ Ishant is playing, best DJ in whole Delhi and also a good friend of mine we just have to say him our selection of songs and after that he will play all the songs of our selection but it sometime become risky for him because after the 2 pegs of Vodka he know that Ajay’s favorite song will be the original version of “kabhi kabhi mere dil me khayal aata hai” and if you are a drinker you can imagine that how hard to listen this song after two pegs of Vodka. Last time the manager of the bar told Ishant that he will fire him from job but that’s what I like about Ajay he never want that someone will get punishment for his work, and saying no to Ajay is a big problem for manager. So Ishant is here and our first favorite song after first peg of Vodka
“Ke aaj mera jee karda, kawa-2 me barsa”
But Moka have a problem also you cannot smoke in Bar, you have to go to backside of the bar to smoke that’s not a problem for me as I m not a regular smoker but Ajay’s lifeline is cigarette so we came back side of bar. And the worst thing for me is control myself when my best friend is smoking opposite of me, so that day I decided to not to control I lighten the next Cigratte Ajay and Rajiv went back inside bar but I decided to finish it with enjoying every puff of it…..
After sometime suddenly bar’s door opened a girl in blue jeans and black t-shirt came outside of the bar. Because of some law lighting I cannot see her face and after two peg of Vodka You can’t think much about girls….but damn god she is coming towards me. And then first time I saw the face of any girl with that much concentration which I give only to my physics Mam miss Shalini but we will not talk about her here. I became a statue when she came near to me. As I am little weak in my poetry but if I want to praise of his beauty I can copy some lines from a bollywood movie’s song-
“Chandan sa badan chanchal chit wan halke se tera woh muskana mujhe dosh na dena jag walo ho jau agar me deewana”
And finally I became deewana. In this whole incident I forgot one thing, the puff which was in my mouth. And finally I got first words from the mouth of an angel….and that words are-
“Hey hi can you tell me where the washroom, actually I am searching for it from last 5 minutes.”
At that time if Moka don’t have any washroom I can make it for them with my whole pocket money which I know not perfect for that but I can take some loan from my friends…
“It is on the upper floor”-
You will be happy that I helped a girl to get her washroom but I think you forget that puff which was in my mouth and now on the face of that girl………….oh my god she will kill me. If you are not aware of the fact I tell you that in Delhi if you do this kind of thing with any girl you will get a slap for sure but I am lucky I said sorry to her and she said no it’s ok, can you imagine how destiny sometimes become a good friend of your…..she left the place then and I also came back in bar where Ajay already drunk 6 pegs of Vodka and you know DJ is playing which song as usual Kabhi kabhi mere dil me………………
Suddenly a hard voice came from the backside table of our. When I saw backside I got shock, she is the same girl who just met me outside of bar. Manager is saying something to her; I have already four pegs of Vodka in my stomach so I understand only some sentences of that conversation-
“Who will pay these 4000 bucks?”
“But uncle we already told you that we came here for our close friend’s birthday party and when we went to washroom our friends left us and ran from here and we don’t have this much amount with us so can we pay it tomorrow.”
That was the voice for which I can do all abnormal things like cut my hand’s veins, commit suicide with the help of rope and also become mental like Salman khan in TERE NAAM. But how can an old sanki budha can understand this thing, he is repeating the same tape
“No you have to pay for this, otherwise give me your parent’s number I will call them and will take my money from them”.
A parent in bar this is one of the most embarrassing moments of someone’s life. Suddenly my heart got a feeling that I have to help that girl; I took 4000 rupees from Ajay and just went to manager.
“Take this, don’t you have manners how to talk with girls (and specially this kind of beautiful girls)”
Manager didn’t say any words to me because he knows that Ajay is there. He took the money and went back to his place. That was the first meeting of mine with that girl named Divya. She asked my number, so she can call me for giving back my rupees. And after that she left the place. First time I got that u can become happy after losing half of your pocket money for a girl for whom even who didn’t gave her number to you, but that was ok for me.
15 December- I was preparing for my next day’s assignment, suddenly bell rang. I just roughly pick up the phone and said HELLO and answer was-
“Hey hi I am Divya remember that moka bar incident, you helped me that time.”
If it was a matter of only 4000 bucks maybe I can forgot but it was that girl whom I cannot forget for even my life time. Actually she wants to meet me at Cannaught place for giving back my money. So we decided our official meeting at Connaught place. I reached there in half an hour and she was already there. How can be girls so punctual what I get to know about girls was that they take so much time for their makeup and all that? But she was not like them she looks awesome without makeup. We met for at least 20 minutes there. That was the starting of our friendship. Next in whole month of January we met almost for 5 times and spent a good time with each other. I realized now that she is perfect one for me. But as usual girls problems you cannot drink and smoke because they are bad things………..how can girls know this without drinking………that what is bad and good. But I left all the things, I think this is the reason why god made woman in this world so man cannot do bad things.
But at the same time I was in confusion also that she loves me or not? That was the last semester of my Engineering and I am sure that I will get a good job in placement interviews but my whole life is now depending on a girl with whom I was chatting till 3 in the night……..but don’t have the guts to say her that I love her….
12th February-It was 23rd birthday of mine and I, Ajay and Rajiv planned to celebrate it in mughal restaurant, Ajay’s plan was for Moka, but he came with me because that was my birthday and he can do anything for me. I also invited Divya on this occasion; she told me that she is coming with some friend so we are just waiting for her. After 15 minutes she came with a guy named Siddhartha. My mind is saying that time that I saw somewhere this guy and finally I got it.
Oh my god that was the same guy whom Ajay and I beaten in our second semester for misbehaving with a classmate of our. But what the rubbish he is doing with Divya. After sometime Ajay standup from there and he and Rajiv went out of restaurant. I was shocked what is happening here. After dinner Divya told me that she wants to talk with me. So we moved out of restaurant Siddhartha also left us in sometime. Now we are alone.
Almost after 10 minutes she started-
“You know Rahul; I never had a friend like you in my life. You are so special for me so when I think about your birthday, I was really confused but finally I got the gift for you. I love you Rahul…………………..”
I was become statue at that time I cannot believe on my ears what the Hell is happening with me, before I come out of my shock she gave me the second shock which later became a biggest mistake of my life-
“I know you are really nice person but you cannot live with people like Ajay, so I have a condition you have to leave Ajay if you really love me”
Dam god how can god give me two different type of shocks of my life at a same time, but that was a realty and I have to face that.
“I am giving you tonight for thinking so choose between me and Ajay”.
That was a hardest question for me to answer. Then Divya called a taxi and left the place……now it’s my turn of thinking……….I thought for whole night one side there is Ajay a friend cum guardian for me who gave me guts to live in a city like Delhi and another side Divya, without whom I cannot survive for even one moment..At last I decided to choose my love……….some people can blame me for this, but without experience it you cannot blame someone.
 13 February-In morning I got call from Ajay who want to meet me at Moka but I refused and told him all the things which happened with me last night, and also about my decision. She just said these words to me and disconnects the phone……
“Okay so you are leaving me, the person who makes you survives in this Delhi.okk but remember you will have to pay for this”
After this conversation for half an hour I just thought about the whole past life of mine and role of Ajay’s in it. But that was past and my future is waiting for me at Mughal restaurant.
I met Divya at restaurant and told her about the decision. She said she is very happy for me that I took the right decision. After that meeting I met with Divya for almost six times in that month we were that like true lovers who will live their life on their own conditions. But that was not true; something was still in the folded hands of destiny. In March starting before some days of my last semester’s exam Divya stopped calling me and when I called her she was out of reaching. I called her for at least 50 times in a day but she didn’t take my phone. And finally worst day of my life came………………..
7th March-That day I tried for Divya’s phone for 15 times but she was not accepting my call. I thought maybe she is busy in some work so I send her a message for calling me………in midnight I got a message from Divya’s number and the message was-
“Hi Rahul sorry for not attending your calls, I have some problems at my home. My father fixed my engagement with a boy of our cast and he is a pass out from IIT Delhi. I will get marry to him in some months so I will not talk to you after this and I am also changing my number……..so bye for always take care….”
My blood was almost become Ice in my Body……how can she do this with me? But it happens….and I am now fully alone. I tried her call but it was switched off. I cried a lot that day. After this incident my life becomes just a formality. Rajiv was very upset for me. One day she came to me that I have to go with him at Moka because he has a birthday party of him there. Firstly I refused but at last I was ready, so before two days of last semester examination I was in Moka.
We were sitting on our favorite table but something is missing there that was Ajay my best friend whom I left just for a girl who has her own problems and don’t want any relationship with me. I was there after a long time. All things are the same but one table has a difference, a couple who is kissing each other. I was happy for them at least some people are there who have their love with them. But when I saw their faces it was a shock for me, you know who they are my best friend Ajay and my so called innocent lover Divya…………….I left that place as soon as possible………..
This is the end of this story before I tell you about that Rahul and his future life, I just want from you to think upon that whose fault is in this story, is it Rahul, is it Divya or is it Ajay……………….This story is purely not about the friendship or love it is about today’s world where we don’t have any respect for relations. And if I tell you about that what happens Rahul so now he is in a MNC Company a 35 year unmarried man who never believe on women. Divya is now a house wife in Delhi and living a life like hell, her husband every night beat her for what, even she don’t know. Ajay is still in Delhi doing the same enjoyment in Moka…………….thanks for reading my story and also I am thankful of some people who gave me inspiration of this story….!!!!!!!!!!!!                 

                   

        
     
    
          
              

Monday, January 10, 2011

Relations

Relationships
Relationships for whom I can say life for someone or just some stupid thought for some people. Fortunately I was one of them for whom relations are life. But there are some moments in life when, even a person who always think from his heart can do some big mistakes in the influence of his ego. After latest incident in my life I also became one of them. Life gave me second chance to be in a relationship, but as always happen you cannot get all the things which you want in your life. But this time I can say it was my mistake. Relationships are always like glass you can break it but it will give you pain also. Actually now I think life is actually kidding with me. Whenever I want to settle in my life it give me lesson that you have still sometime for unsettlement. But this time I will not give life a chance to break my relationship. According to a person whom I respect most in my life if your heart really says that you are wrong you must have to take first step for saving your relationship, Because sometime your first step can make your relationship stronger. Today I am also going to do the same, I pray to god for giving me his mercy and at last I want to say only a few lines from one of my favorite film-……………………………………………………………………………………………………………….
“Bas ek haan ke intezaar me raat yu hi guzar jayegi, ab to bas uljhan he sath mere neend kaha aayegi
Subah ki kiran na jane kaunsa sandesh layegi, rimjhim si gungunayegi ya pyaas adhuri reh jayegi”

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Some unfolded secrets

Some unfolded secrets
Every person has some beautiful moments in his life which he never forgets in his or her life. These are that moments which make the life more enjoyable even the future also. I  also have some incidents in my life which until now are in my heart but there is one saying that if you can’t express your thoughts by talking you can write it for others so I am trying today to follow that saying and express my feelings in a story manner so be ready for this ride………………………………….
12 July 2007………After a long boring summer vacation I am ready to go to school my favorite picnic destination in life. Sorry but I forget to introduce myself. My name is Ajay studying in 10th class in jubilee senior secondary school; I just passed my 18th birthday this year. I can never forget this time of my life because it is like a nightmare for me which took two important years of my life from me.   So it is already late and I have to go to school because some friends of mine waiting for me. This is my school which I don’t want to call school because it never looks like school, personally it look like a zoo where we all are like animal working by the fear of ringmaster means our teachers. So here are my friends Jai whom I call the jack of our School, Sunny for whom principal of our school is thinking that he is absolute shani for our school, Sanjay the playboy of our school and at last me a don’t care type guy, I can do anything from going to home without shirt to some serious pangas for some stupid type of bets. Like always that day I also want to go on time to school but as usual I am late and I have to listen to the boring lecture of our principal for time management. But it is surprise for me that day principal didn’t say any word to me. After the regular prayer I went in the class and asked my friend about the new admissions .There are only three new admissions two boys and one girl. I told that we firstly have to meet  the  boys because at that time I was like sanyasi type boy that was not because I didn’t like girls, but because I didn’t speak with any girl in my school life you can say I have a phobia of girls. So the first new admission vivek sharma, a child type guy. I was just asking him his name, at that time suddenly a voice came after me “what are you doing with my Bhai?”When I looked behind I was like shocked, a girl with a cute face looking at me like I had murdered her brother. She asked me second time this question, I was like unconscious what to say now. Suddenly sunny said “we are just asking his name”. Suddenly our maths teacher came into our class we all sat on our benches ,even in the full class I was just looking at her face she is so cute, and one thing more she is intelligent then me because she came from a C.B.S.E. school and we are from Rajasthan sec.board who is very famous for its teachers laziness. After the class I told my friend to ask her name to any girl of our school, sanjay told me that her name is kriti sharma and she is from Udaipur. That whole night I was just thinking about her and dreaming about our happy married life and it is not a joke it is real thing. Next day I decided that I have to become her friend or I have to beat all the boys of our school. I went to him and said that I have a problem in maths can she help me. She answered with very politeness that she is ready to solve my problem I was happy like she said yes for marriage. That was the first talk of us.
After this talk I talk to her many times and finally that day comes when I decided to purpose her for friendship. It was evening’s time and I am in market. It was also her tuition time she has to cross a railway bridge to go to her tuition classes. I was on that bridge that time suddenly she came. Jai was with me he was like a support for me. When kriti saw me she came to me that what I am doing there, Jai told her that I want to talk to her, she asked me that what I want to say to her I was just like become dead body I don’t have any words in my mouth. She asked me for three times but I was like become a statue of liberty after some time she said to me that I have to go and we will talk tomorrow. That night was like a year for me I thought about next day for all night. Next day I talk to my so called sister Nilam about this she gave sympathy to me and said that she will talk to kriti and also asked about my friendship to her. After one hour she came to me and told me that kriti don’t want to even talk to me after last day’s incident because she don’t want a friendship with a guy who don’t have respect for girl, I was like shocked how she can say this about me who never talk to so much girls in even his whole life. After this incident I didn’t talk with her for a week and that week was like I got a punishment of “kalapani”. After one week one day I was standing with some of my friends in garden of our school, she came to me and said sorry for that day and asked me for friendship. I got a feeling like Romeo as I got my Juliet, that day was like a golden day for me
2 months from that day I have so much fun and enjoyment with my friends group in which kriti was also an important member, now I was assure that if I propose her she will definitely say yes to me, and that was biggest mistake. Unfortunately that day came when I got biggest sad moment of my life. We are in restaurant near our school, I ordered tea for me and cold drink for her. That day she was looking like an angel with a monalisa type of smile on her face. I proposed her but she refused my proposal and said that she is not that type of girl and from that moment she doesn’t want to see my face again. I got a shock of 440 voltages, she was disappearing from my eyes and I cannot let her stop. After this incident she never talked with me I tried lot of times to call her but she ignored my call, in this sad moment I have only one friend that was my can of beer he never make me feel alone, But whenever I went to bed to sleep all things were like fast forward in my eyes. I never slept more than two hours in the night at that time. That time I was having a feeling that I was lost something.  Her one cute smile was like a treasure for me which I never got from that day. After one month of this incident I got news that she was going to Udaipur with her father because of her father’s transfer. That night I drunk almost four cans of beer, after that I went to her home but that was too late because she leaved the house before two hours. That moment was a tragedy for me. That day I spend my whole night at her home. Until now I never got any message from her or never seen her. But when I lost her I got a feeling of like kill myself because the real reason for never accepting me was my habit of drinking and smoking as she told to Nilam. When I got this thing I decided one thing in my life that I will never drink or smoke in my life and I will take my life and career seriously because she want me like this.
Even now sometime in night I suddenly wake up and when I look my eyes they are wet if god ask me my last wish, I just want to meet kriti one time in my life. May be some day I will meet her…………………………………………………………………………thanks kriti for giving me inspiration for this story.